I miss you...

Tomorrow will be four months with out Casey baby. I miss you so much. All i wanna do is hug you. Im sorry I never took you up on your offers on hanging out or just going to do something with you I wish i did. You know I never stopped loving you. I still have every note you wrote me? You always said i was beautiful. Even back then when I looked like i dont know what. haha. I loved that about you. You looked beyond appearance & saw the heart. I miss you I dont know how many times I can say that because its so true. Thinking about you breaks my heart. Im ready to see you. My lap top is dying. I love you my sweet angel.

I live..

ABOVE 

THE 

INFLUENCE

i am

I was born to be stubborn, to be a little bit mean, to push people, to push myself. I was taught to never take life for granted, to live a little, to love with everything I had, to never give up, to believe in myself but for most of all,
to fight for myself <3

You know that girl?

  Who have the tendency to stay up all night listening to music that remind them of their current situation. who hide their fears, hurt, and pains and tears under their smiles and laughs all on a daily basis. the girls who wear their hearts on their sleeve. the girls who pray things will workout just once and they'll be satisfied. the girls who scream and cry into their pillows because the rest of the world fails to listen. the girls who have it hard but don't let anyone know that. the girls who may never have it easy. the girls who have so many secrets but will never tall a soul. the girls who have regrets and mistakes as a daily moral. the girls who don't always win, who may never win. the girls who stay up all night thinking about that one boy, wondering if he'll ever notice her. the girls who get what they get and don't throw a fit. the girls who take life as it comes, hoping it'll get easier somewhere down the road. the girls who love with all their hearts but always get broken. That girl is me.

Well yeah.

You say your not like other guys, Yet you can sit there & break up with me because you want to be single. Yeah okay baby. Your just another chapter in my book. !

/:

whatever.

So yeah!!!!!!

Im changing. I tired of being the one that is known as "the mean one" Im sick of being looked at like im gonna punch you if you talk to me. Im highly tired of the division between the girls. Its getting annoying. No i am not hurt. Im just pissed off. So dont think that im having family problems or whatever because thats crap. Im not ha. Im just sick of it. So yeah. Tomorrow i will fix it. Or i will be back to blog about how i crashed and burned ha.

i have

15 people poking me on facebook. ! ha

So i am.

So i am going to perry's to make brownies & watch movies. Oh how glad i am that he is mine. (:

I LOVE YOU!

Hahaha! Not reallyyyy(;

Moo.

Boredom kills. 

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SUMMMMEERRRR WHEREEE AREEEE YOUUUUUUUUUUUUUU???!?!?!??!

(:

I might go watch kelsey & perry might come too. Yayyy(:

/:

So im sick & i miss my boyfriend. :(

Yepp. (:

The best feeling in the world is finally knowing you took a step in the right direction, a step towards the future where everything that you never thought was possible, is possible

So yeah!

I'm glad that Saturday the girls are going to bond. (:

Friday. (:

So perry & i are going to watch the notebook & ps i love you. Well really im making him watch them. He'll probably go to sleep. Oh well. (: Haha
I cant wait for tomorrow !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!(:

YAYYY!!

Perrryyy askeeddd meeee outttttttt.(:

Lala. Oh well.

No more softball for me. Oh well. (:

What to do?

You don't know what I've been through. You don't know my past. You don't know my secrets. You don't know what I go through. You don't know what I've lost. You don't know what I feel. You don't know a thing about me.& you still judge me ? 

 

Butterflies. (:

You went to see rango with me, you didnt have to but you did. You laughed at me because im short enough to pass as a 13 year old. After the movie It was raining, you took me on a back muddy road, were you can see the city lights and the river walk. It was beautiful just like your smile. You put your hand in mine and said baby i could do this forever. Little did you know i was had the worst butterflies ever.

Rango.

Rango was a very boring movie. And it said the h word a lot ha.
But i went with someone pretty cool. (: So it was worth it !

So..

I found my prom dress. It was the first one i tried on friday. I tried like 13 others one but i couldnt get it off my mind. So one more time i put it on. It was like a dream. I found the one <3

Softball prom friends atl

March is going to be VERY stressful !!!!

School.

School is becoming more of a nightmare than anything else. I do have a life. & school is getting in the way of it & its annoying. & yeah.

I hate school. (:

Just keep looking..

So im looking for prom dresses. Im going with my best friend that i have known since 7th grade.
I love Kevin. (:

YAYYY!!

I am ready for tomorrow like legit.
Its going to be amazing.
& I need to get away from this town.
Tonight i have softball & uniform fittings.
& yeah.
Ana out !(:

(:

I am hungry.

haha, (:

To My Haters.

I keep it real and that's a PROMISE.

I may be whatever you want to call me.

But I'm HONEST.

When i walk by, you stop and stare.

Well, keep looking

'CAUSE I DON'T CARE.

I have my own life and style.

Not trying to please you or smile.

When it comes to COMPETITION,

You're out.

So, shut your hatin' self.

AND KEEP ME OUT OF YOUR MOUTH. !

Broken.

She has secrets you'll never know Or understand, She appears so strong on the outside, But on the inside her world is spinnin upside down.Shes smiling and standing tall to the world,Shes crying and breaking down in her world.She appears so happy to her friends. But Alone, she shares her tears with her pillow.She knows not to get her hopes up. As they always come crashing down.Shes heard it all before & felt it all.Shes had experience getting hurt than you think. 1 Touch, & She'll flinch1 harsh, word & she'll cry. 1 Bad moment, & She'll break down But you won't see it. Its on the inside. She trusts no one, because the people she has, hurt her & leave her to pick up the pieces She believes no one, Because the people she has, lie & betray her.So for now she will keep to herself & pretend everything is fine, When everything is wrong. I know all this, because i know the girl. I know the girl because..I am the girl.

Love is just another word i never learn to pronouce.

Love; when i think about love i think of heartbreak, hurting and tears. I hate love. I want nothing to do with it ever again.. until another guy comes along and it all starts again. Love is the worst feeling you could ever have. Its tragic. Love makes you go crazy. It can keep you up for hours. And leave you feeling compelely empty and cold. Love sucks plain in simple.

(:

Im highly ready for softball!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!(:

loookkk !

Paste !!!!!!! (:

Yes , yes.

& no matter how much he changes there will always be a piece of my heart that never stopped loving him.

Do it.

you can waste your time, stumbling through life picking out out all the terrible things..
or you can dance through your life, appreciating every single breath you take.

Baby keep your head up.

Don't look down. Its not worth it. Look up to the sky. It will be okay, it may not make since now but it will one day. Your not dead so this will only make you stronger. Just breathe baby. Its just another day.

A performer.

I found out that I am outgoing, friendly, and fun to be around. Also that i like being the center of attention and that I am like by most people. I do not like structure or routine. And the world is my stage.

I found out about my jobs could be in the art's, social worker, counselor, or child care ( haha not.) It said that i liked to help with others problems.

In relationships i found out that I am very loving and i know how to get out of a bad relationships but it easy for me. And that im very sweet and i like being around people and having a lot of friends.

Beautiful is what you are.

I am making a cake for bio. Its turning out good, even tho i had to mix it with a blender , (: Bahaha.
The walk for life was great ! Yeah (:

I still love you.

im not going to stress over you anymore it isnt worth it i tried to work something out but you just ignored it im not trying to say i dont want you because i definitely do all im saying is im done chasing after you.

Starting over.

Lets start over. I promise it will be okay. Lets just go back to yesterday. Your all i want. Nothing more nothing less. Just you. Your better than all the rest. You have my heart always will from the start i knew it was true.

Teardrops.

I see you and my heart breaks. I miss you. I hope this is just a phrase and you come back. I can't stand you leaving me. I love you i really do. Your the best thing ever. Every time i blink i see you. I do not know what to do. But  all i can do is trust that God has something better in store. 

Lalala.

Heartbroken nuff said. ):

Look ma' no hands.

I am blogging on blogger because im in brookes class. Blogging is like a dairy that other people read it. In my head im singing this as a song. Well gotta go freaks & geeks . (: